today was a fairytale~

bismillah..

hari ini 12hb febuari.. miss fisya,,lecterur kimia kat msu kawin! first time aku pegi lecturer kawin.even cikgu tak penah pon.kinda best la. aku n kawan aku bgi hadiah jam loceng. thought nak prank dye time pukul 1..am,,,kekekkee

aku jumpe jugak cikgu kimia sementara kat tgb. ak lupe time tuh sape name dia n till now pon lupe lagi..hahaha.. cikgu tu time kat tgb freshie lagi bru balik dpd oversea and gorgeous n stylo jugak la... and dia n his wife kelasmate ngan miss fisya and husband time diploma kat uitm arau dulu. diploma sains. its a memory that i keep doing right now. so that before my life ends, i have done what i want to do~ insyaAllah

saya yang dulu

sejarah itu perit

taktau mane silap yang ak buat smpikan lelaki2 memandang aku keji. am i a prisoner so that you can hate me so damn much huh? apa silap saya smpikan saya mcm ni dilayan? salahke kalau nak jadik diri sendiri? jap2..apa aku buat ni? ak bengong,,,tui2..taktau nak buat ap..nak study tak boleh,,hati tak tenang,,sakit hati.. rasa mcm dikhianati..penat ak bina wall dlm hati agar people tak boleh easily broke down my heart tapi i am such a brittle girl..cant even stand a storm, a punch or whatever pon yang orng len suakan kat hati aku. for a hundred times kot ak sebut pasal ni tapir. damn it.

kau ni kan talam dua muka. mungkin ramai yang sama mcm kau,,khianat.. kalau tak suka satu person,, jgn layan person tu as if you care so much pada dia. kau tu tak jujur pada hati sendiri tau tak.kalau da memang benci ngan that person tuh,jgn pilih dia as your groupmate,,dont ever ask that person bout assignment,study. you just keep yourself hating that person sampai mati.kan senang. dua2 pihak aman dan damai. tak de yang perit hati takde yang mcm lembu kene cucuk hidung. ak bengang ngan kau. boleh plak kau cakap yang 'jap,bile ak baik ngan dia' kau kalau benci ngan aku,,tolonglah!enough! ak pon tak ingin pon la nak kawan ngan kau. AKU AKAN BUKTIKAN YANG AKU BOLEH STAND KAT DUNIA NI TANPA KAU ORANG LA! and i will make sure yang once you will need me very much in ur life and melutut merayu kat aku.

whats wrong with me?

assalamualaikum.

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baru lepas bace firman2 Allah kat wall satu budak ni...hati rase rebel giler! ak pun tak tahu kenapa...i'm just feel yang 'pehal korang nak act like korang baik giler?! ' ak ni giler la..ak pun tak tahu kenapa i felt like this. mungkin sebab aku dah tinggalkan alQuran for a long day..hurmm... is it wrong for me to hear screamo music and at the same time ak jugak bace AlQuran,,is my iman isnt balance? ak rase tak tenang ang people said that ALquran is what you r searching for when you felt bad because its kalamullah,,Allah who creates us and allah knows us better than ourselves...haisshh currently alone at delta,,huda is sleeping and i just got home after hours stuck in the traffic jam~ dushh,,memang la kuat merepak aku ni..hhaaa

SALAH SAYA

berbalik pd post before ni,,ak ckp pasal trust. recently, tapir really did the experiment 4 but he just dont tell me bcoz he kinda like a forgetful person la..if i didnt ask he wont give to me. haaa... mcm mane tau? ak tau sebab satu hari dia cal tyme kol 1am. ak tenga kuak lentang atas katil and listen to when the door closes(dongwoon n du jun)(beast).. he called n asked for bio report. i'm already deleted his contact list n like i asked,,"who is this?" and he kept silent n okay i said.."okay"..i knew its him. tyme tuh hati da heartless skit malas nak pikir lgi pastu he kept calling and asked2..till one time i tershout kat dia and he said "jwab je la ak tenga tension ni" and i cannot hold anymore my anger towards him and i spat out kisah yang i bengang ngan dia. and he said he did la bukannya tak. that second i realized i should trust him cume need some time je la sbb dia a person yg tak care lgsung people sekeliling.. he and his small world... tapi ngan laki ni ak rase mcm adik yg aku kene jge perasaan dia even dia besar mcm abang je kat ak~

chow